At this point I have sent in most of college applications, and I plan to finish the rest this weekend. Life seems to be slowing down for the time being, though I still feel ambivalence toward school and college stuff. On one hand, I feel a sense of elation now that the first semester is over and my workload is going to greatly diminish. On the other, though, I have a lot of doubt in myself, my applications, and my grades, and being torn between these two feelings makes it difficult to focus and get things done.
I recently finished two long papers: one for Physics about the invention of the brassiere and the other for English about death in Hamlet, No Country For Old Men, and Jacob’s Ladder. Both turned out great in my mind, but the “done” feeling seems prolonged and is seriously affecting my judgment when it comes to doing work and going to sleep at a reasonable hour. Even now, I’m writing about my life instead of going to sleep and perhaps having a better day tomorrow.
Oh, and when I should have been focusing on work this whole time, I started learning Haskell, one of the most useless popular programming languages. It’s definitely fun, and it’s not like there would be a better time, but it feels so wrong.
Peace out.
